BiTs 'N PiEces oF mY LifE...

its amazing how one's mind works. so many thing's running thru it at the same time. anw, random things going thru my mind:
- driving's so exciting!
- looks can be very deceiving. damn. dun wanna spoil my mood. but somehow.. sighs.
- results out tmr!
- the issue abt age gaps.

coz i was watching this episode of Get Real on channel news asia. the topic was abt the large age differences between some parents n their kids. quite interesting. there're actually quite a number of parents who have children at the later half of their lives. n so the age gaps are really huge, even larger than that between my mum n i. the show featured this girl who's ard 15 this yr while her mum's a lot older. n diana ser was interviewing both the mum and the daughter. apparently the daughter doesnt even noe how to take care of herself coz her mum does everything for her. like wash her clothes, cook for her, give her money etc etc. n she doesnt even wanna go out with her mum! din really watch the front part so i dunno wad else they featured. but tt was wad the mum said n i felt really bad for her coz her daughter seems to be more caught up in her own life to care abt her mum. even when her mum's legs r giving her problems such that she has to apply some medicated oil. but seriously i think that no matter wad age ur parents are, u have to at least learn to try to understand ur parents n their needs. they have been there to look after u for so many yrs up to ur teens. frm then on isnt it time to learn to reciprocate all that they have done? all the sacrifices tt they have made?

tt's my opinion la. but kids nowadays, me included, r usually so caught up in our own lives somehow we can juz treat our homes as a hotel. somewhere where we go to to bathe n sleep at night only. other than tt we spend our lives outside. n mostly without our family, much less our parents. we normally think of them as our atms coz they're the ones who give us money since we haven started work yet. hahas no offense yeah. someone please tell me if i'm wrong =)


-rArD! hello rard! woohoo that's fast! ahhaha anw lucks for tmr! cya ard then! =)

brentz! hahahas thanks n all the best to u too for wednesday! =)

hengnutz! lols. good luck! haha

pricilla! :) hahas hi beep! thanks girl! yay driving's really fun! hope to see u soon too =) take care!

min! lol so long! hehe no prob, jiayou for it k! *hugs

jw-! oei.. haha i think my instructor was fearing for his life too. lols.

SuNsHIne! heyy no la, actually its not v difficult. juz tt it was my first lesson so was not used to it only. =)

cy! lols yeah he msged me too! hahaha oh man i think he really misses us! we're so fun to work with HAHAHA k anw have fun slacking! woohoo unless u found a job again! hahas take care!

posted by linez @ 12:28 PM

hahaha i think im really too free these days. i keep blogging!

anw went for my first driving lesson today! wahahha so exciting to be at the driver's seat, behind the wheel! n the instructor was quite nice i guess. anw i kept forgetting wad i was supposed to do la. hahas. coz when we're moving off we're supposed to depress the clutch pedal fully, depress the accelerator pedal a little, release the clutch pedal halfway till the car's at its 'biting point', hold it there for awhile then release fully. after awhile we can change up to the second gear. but i kept forgetting to hold onto the clutch for awhile when i move off! hahas. ended up stalling the engine a few times. n when i changed up to second gear, there were a few times when i released the clutch pedal too fast. the car ended up rocking! hahaha quite cool but i was so scared tt it wld stall. lols. oh oh n my steering. hahaha so funny! coz initially i wasnt really sure how much to steer so i wld steer either v little or too much! n sometimes i steered back too early. there was once i dunno y, i steered into the lane for oncoming traffic! gosh luckily i was driving within the circuit la. haha cant imagine wad it wld have been like on the actual roads. oops.

met min after the lesson outside the centre! she was going for her lesson too i think. haha good luck for ur trial AND advanced theory test!! =)

posted by linez @ 12:12 PM

yays im sleepy. haha okay that was stupid.

went running in bishan park with my dad! jogged 6.6km n then walked 3.3km. hahaha quite nice to be exercising. hehe. anw, i was walking halfway thru the 3.3km part when guess wad, i saw mrs hoo! n she still recognised me! hahaha so cool la. actually i first noticed the remote control car her son was playing with. coz he kept making the car go round in small circles only in the middle of the path. haah so it was kinda obvious. when i looked more closely, i saw a man. n then a little girl. n beside the man was mrs hoo! lol. the man was mr hoo la. haha duh rights. oh man it was so cool! when i said 'hello!' to mr n mrs hoo, their kids turned to me n smiled n said hello too! at the same time! oh man n when they smiled they looked almost alike la! wahhh so cute!!! dylan was so funny, he din really noe how to control the thing i guess. so the car kept reversing after that. hahas. poor ray-en(im not sure how to spell her name) was running den she accidentally tripped over the car n fell. aww. poor thing but she din really cry. haha so brave! can imagine wad it wld have been like if it was my cousin who fell. gosh i dun even wanna think of it. anw i think mr n mrs hoo r really cool parents. hahas

went to ntuc with mum after lunch. gosh there were so many pple. n we sorta juz took wadeva we need as if its free la. lol. quite funny. anw the trolley was so heavy i was really tired after pushing it ard. bought mochi! ahaha v nice!!

another cousin's 21st birthday party to go for again later. shd go sleep now. ahhas

oh btw, the song "so sick" is very nice too. haha go listen to it on perfect10 =)

So Sick by Ne-Yo

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
'Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
'Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice
Anymore

(It's ridiculous)
It's been months for some reason I just
(Can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(Enough is enough)
No more walking 'round with my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

(Chorus)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

(Chorus)
That's the reason
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

O-o-h (Leave me alone)
Leave me alone (Stupid love song)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Then lettin' go
Turning off the radio

(Chorus x3)
'Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
She were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(So why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

posted by linez @ 2:54 PM

Crazy            by Simple Plan

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
Won’t stop 'til they’ve reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshoped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it’s World War III

No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
And money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV’s
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something
something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

yays i love this song too. haha somehow quite apt. i dunno y. hehe.
simple plan juz rocks la, they noe how to convey the many msges pple have but dunno how to express. at least tt's wad i think

SuNsHIne n hengnutz! lols. wanna change place not. hahahaha but i dun wanna go for ns! aiya anw i dun work there le, so
there's not much diff la. hehs

hf! oh man i have no idea when we'll get our pay now! arrgh damn pissed at her. oh wells. haha the link really got prob?
i still can see my pretty face. lol. dun puke hahas yup u take care too! =)

yanyi! hahha thanks ah, my wardrobe happens to be filled with blue clothes actually. LOL. tt's y i said its a coincidence! hahaa

kai! lols. wad did u wanna say? hahaha anw take care dear, cya on wed!

jw-! ehh i dun wanna wear my specs to sch. feels v weird. hahaas i prefer my contacts anytime! :D oh well whether u like it or
not, u'll be seeing all of us on wed. =)

posted by linez @ 9:15 PM

yay no more harry potter specs! lols. finally collected my new specs today =) wheee but still not used to it. hahaha nvm, its quite cool i think :D

went back to nj to practise mass dance today. haha gosh we're all rusty la. but it was great seeing the rest again =) will be back in nj again next week. arrgh for a different reason. oh man. this is so scary haha i dunno wad to think!

sometimes i juz feel that eq is very important. doesnt matter whether u're with family or frens. it is like the basis of all relationships.

anw i really need to go running again. been so lazy i cant stand myself. im inflating at an alarming rate. yucks.

this post is so random. hahaa oh wells

posted by linez @ 11:52 PM

posted by linez @ 5:45 PM

freedom! woohoo~! hahas. =)

went for the ntu talks with mich, kairu, rx, ivy. we were late for the accountancy talks n it was so hugely popular tt we cldnt even enter the ballroom. hahas anw, kai, ivy, natalie n i went for the comm studies talks after slacking ard downstairs. met a lot of pple at the hotel! both 4L n S13 cheryls, mingjuan, aziz, estelle, jingjing, n my cousin! saw lotsa pple but yea kinda forgot who else. hmms. anw went for lunch n then listened to the chem n biochem/mathematical science talks too. ivy n i were super early n we ended up listening to some parts of the physics one as well. physics is really not our cup of tea la. anw, the chem talk was quite ok but got a bit boring towards the end. the maths one too. was so amusing coz both talks were scheduled within the 1 hr slot. n once the person in charge of talking abt mathematical science introduced himself, there was an uproar n more than half e ballroom of pple left. hahaha

met hf n mint after tt. yen came a bit later. n we ate dinner at sakae at 4 plus. hahaha we were not hungry summore la. so weird. but we still ate anw. i think tt's the first time any of us ate so little in sakae. yay saved money! hahas. =) ooh n the girls were so cute la. after we paid n left the place, they suddenly rmbed tt they had planned to celebrate my bdae! so we ended up celebrating it outside sakae. hahas thanks anw dears! loved the chocolate on the cake! v nice! oh but i think i was on a really sweet diet yesterday. kept feeling the chocolate in my mouth. sickeningly sweet feeling but it was ok la. as long as it doesnt affect my health much. heh.

walked ard for awhile before they went to buy ice-cream at macs! haha cldnt take the sweetness alr so decided to forgo it. anw i ate almost the whole piece of cake by myself! imagine all the sugar. ok nvm ignore that.

yeps! went home, helped my sis do a physics qn, bathed then left the house again for changi airport to send my cousin off again.

hf! hahaha ya lor but yays we met up for 7 consecutive days! so exciting. hahas have fun at work k, cya real soon again i hope! =)

posted by linez @ 11:02 AM

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posted by linez @ 11:44 PM

cant believe i was so stoned today. woke up at 1030 when i had actually planned to wake up early n go running or swimming or juz exercise. oh btw i realised tt the pool in my estate's out of bounds now coz its suspected tt it is leaking or sth. hahaha dotz right. anw asked my mum to fetch me to the 86 bus stop n waited for the bus tt faithfully comes at ard 1150 almost everyday. hahas n then for wadeva reason i cannot fathom, i felt only half awake! gosh.. fell asleep as usual n decided tt i felt lazy to walk so i went to the 83 bus stop instead. actually to get to the centre we can take either 83 or 136. but guess wad, i missed 83 coz i was walking a tad too slowly n i almost missed 136 too coz i forgot we can take that bus! my goodness. luckily hf was rushing towards the bus stop n i recognised her n she cld hear me call her! if not i think i wld confirm be late alr. dunno wad i was thinking. hahas

honestly i think i was in a weird mood today la. thank goodness f0r huangfang to complain to. n for ur help! haha was so pleasantly surprised tt anselm finished his food! LoLS. thanks girl, u will nv noe how much ur company means to me =) n its not only during work. hahas really glad to have both yen n hf working there with me. love the company n think im gonna miss the feeling of security sighs. muz start searching for another job alr. all back to square one. but wells, at least i decided on it alr so shd not give myself n others even more trouble by dragging it on n on n on... :)

anw, been thinking of some stuff recently. sometimes u juz wanna noe sth but things arent always as blatant as u want it to be. the uncertainty there makes it so difficult to make decisions. or do sth. n it kinda sucks if u're someone with limited patience. like me. i think. hmmmmm dunno la. juz a random thought. has so many meanings to it tt sometimes i cant be sure wad i'm thinking abt. hehs.

jw-! hahaha ya can tag again finally! yays! =) miss ya girl when can u stop being lazy n go out?! hahas k la, anw try to have fun at ur job okay, its not easy to find this kinda jobs noe. take care!

kim! hahaha ya lor, so disappointing! but it was fun meeting up with u two nonetheless :) cya real soon again i hope!

piuzy! ya ok i owe u a treat la. n im not paedo please! hahaha its juz tt the kids r damn cute! okays catch up with u some time yea, but dunno if i'll be visiting sa. for wad anw?? heh yup take care! =)

posted by linez @ 11:48 PM

hahas juz came back frm watching i not stupid 2! with my mum! thought the show was v nice =) this is the first movie that actually touched me to TEARS. lol. can u believe it?! i usually dun even tear when im watching so-called touching movies n i actually was sorta crying frm halfway thru the movie! wow the wonders of parental love. hahas. but it was so funny la, sometime during the movie i noticed tt my mum's head was kinda bent n guess wad?! she actually fell asleep! :\ dotz. had to nudge her to wake her up. lol but after tt she was awake la. so funny hahs.

oh met up with mich n kim again last night for dinner! n sent ylang off before tt too. rushed all the way frm work. was able to make it juz in time! was kinda sad seeing her leave but its for a better future so yup, take care n all the best girl! =) will kinda miss ur smile hahas

anw dinner was great! even though we were all so tired! n i think i was one of the most quiet ones coz i was practically juz stoning there? i dunno haha. took lotsa stupid photos too! shall upload when i feel like it. hahas we all realised its a really bad idea to meet up on vday. coz all restaurants are booked! n packed! even in the airport. yes u read me right, its CHANGI AIRPORT. initially we thought that the fish n co queue was v long but mich took her name down anw. then since the really nice n polite guy was saying tt we wld have to wait for ard half an hour, we decided to go walk ard n check out other places to see if they were less crowded. n well there wasnt anywhere tt was not so crowded. other than macs n bk. bleahs. oh anw so we took the escalator down to the swensens area. n initially the queue din seem that long, until we reached the bottom of the escalator. tt was when we realised tt the queue was so long tt pple(or rather couples) were sitting down on this ledge in front of the decorative plants. the queue was ard more than a few metres long?! scary man. anw we went back to fish n co n waited for awhile more before we finally went in. yays. n we sat near the window so we cld observe all the passers-by. so cool. lols. yep anw it was great juz catching up with the girls! =)

oh btw anyone who wants to tag pls go to my guestbook instead? coz there's always some error or sth. yeps. n my guestbook's kinda dying anw. haha need to revive it somehow! hehs. go sign okokok!!! =)

posted by linez @ 2:53 PM

wow its vday alr! happy vday everyone! have fun with ur loved ones or juz with ur great frens! hahahas kinda miss sn! esp during vday coz everyone'll juz be giving out lotsa nice lil presents n sweets n chocs. n its so cool coz it celebrates friendship too =)

been working during the weekdays n slacking as much as i can during the weekends. but suddenly i felt tt i had no life at all! all i have been doing for the past month was to go work n then go straight home! wahahas so glad to have gone out with the girls on sunday! yays finally got out of my home. n did lotsa stuff like shopping n eating n juz catching up. hehe. sat was spent in my estate practising mass dance for some filming thing. honestly im still kinda blur. heh. but i think i get the rough idea. juz go practise our mass dances n then film lor. but for wadeva reason i'm not sure. wells i like the idea of inspiring all the other councils to go get their mass dances filmed too coz ours will be cool! lols. was so funny la, but nice meeting up with pradeep, joe n cand too. n julito changed his number n no one knew how to contact him?! hahaha tt was quite funny actually. imagine all the msges pradeep had wasted by sending them to his old number.

oh oh! took lotsa neoprints at joyce's workplace too! haha her job's so cool la. promoting cityglam perfumes. n it smells quite nice i think! n the best part was tt they had rented this neoprint machine so whoever who knew of it cld go take neos for free! LoL n the 5 of us took more than 10 of them. we juz practically stayed in there until other pple came.

sighs suddenly i miss a lot of frens. wanna catch up with so many pple. shall hurry n try to go get a life soon before everything gets weird n lost. hahas. k tt sounds weird but nvm.

i wanna watch i not stupid 2! yen! when can we watch?!??! so exciting hahas wanna watch lotsa movies actually. but no time no money, dunno who to go with. bleahs so sian. weekends have really become v precious! but movie tix r the most ex then! dammit. nvm i shdnt complain so much coz i'll be out of a job this friday onwards. hopefully. dunno lehh. shall see how things go. oh man i love ruijun! n she loves kids! hahas sounds kinda incoherent.. oh wells!

anw there're so many rumours floating ard abt the release of A levels results. arrgh i dunno wad to think. dun really wanna think abt it actually but sighs. so many rumours, so many pple speculating. somehow the papers said tt its gonna remain on the first week of march but some ns guys say they book out on friday? hmmm then again my neighbour's gonna be halfway thru fieldcamp. haha oh wadeva. nvm shall juz wait n see how. yes. be patient :)

posted by linez @ 12:45 AM

sigh i dun wanna grow up. not now, never! sadly things always seem to go the way we dun want them too. is this wad life is abt?! when we grow up, we'll have to face society n frm wad i've noticed very recently, society is a really nasty thing that no one likes but has to accept. y? coz of survival. n its really like the survival of the fittest, or rather nastiest. by being honest, u might end up juz getting cheated n sorry, no one will pity u. who asked u to be so dumb in the first place?! by having a sense of responsibility, u'll eventually feel like the world's on ur shoulders n tt u're like the only one stressed out for no reason. by actually having feelings n for liking wad u're doing, u'll find out tt things get real hard after tt n the feeling sucks when u suddenly have to stop wadeva u've grown used to n get back to square one.

i noe i shdnt feel bad n stuff. esp when its getting more apparent tt i've been a fool. so stupid. for once i agree with my aunt hahas. sheesh.. i actually gave up a better job juz coz i was told tt i have to notify them one mth in advance. n i believed them. n in the end i lost tt job offer. gosh how dumb can i get?!??! VERY. cant believe all my aunt n her fren's attempts to help me have gone to waste. thanks to me. the more i think abt it, the reason for the one mth's notice is juz for their own convenience. as if they care abt me. wad they wanna noe is how they can juz continue on. find another person to work there. working there isnt tt bad either, juz tt it really isnt wad i've expected it to be. its a really shocking job in which u have to be on high alert. haha at least its like that to me. but i juz cant help it sometimes. i feel responsible for letting them get their hopes high up with all the help n stuff. n now suddenly i juz dropped a bomb(figuratively) by saying i gtg. even though i was the one who said ok when told abt the one mth notice thing. its so so super irritating. how both the angel n the devil in my mind keep debating. oh wells. like hf said, i shd juz make a firm decision n stand by it yes?

anw! hope it'll be settled. gotta brace myself for work tmr. i think. dunno la... but in any case, RUIJUN! I LOVE YOU!!!!! =D hahaha dun worry im straight =) but yeps! i'm juz so glad tt i have a fren who loves kids more than i do. a lot more.

for now, i think i've learnt my lesson. i wun be so stupid again. gotta be more alert, learn to do things in a way tt pple wun have to feel worried for me. or anxious. or wadeva. if tt's wad life will be like in the working world, i guess wad i have to do is to grow up. be more mature n self-reliant. n definitely not so submissive all the time.

posted by linez @ 12:05 AM

slowly but steadily, i think i might lose my voice. i hope not. hahas. had to keep shouting at the kids i was in charge of for the past few days. my gosh they're so difficult to control! left work with a headache today. luckily i cld finally leave at 630 today! phew!

i feel so stupid la, i cld have done counter all the way till 630 wahahhas. but honest me asked serene, "how abt joanne's class?" gosh.. tt was the start of my nightmare! all the edgefield kids had to go to my class, including sean koh, zonghong n marcus tan. it was like total havoc today, i think i made the centre even noisier than it was. oops. so pai seh.. i think my class was the noisiest! hahaha they were cute though! qi xuan n shawn chia were fighting over this red foldable chair tt i placed next to ruo xi, their rumoured gf. hahaha so cuteeeee!!! anw in the end i replaced the red chair with a black one instead n tt stopped them frm squeezing onto one chair. its such a funny sight coz both of them were juz trying to get their butts on tt red chair. dunno y either. its amusing how kids can argue over everything! i kept hearing "teacher, teacher...." the whole afternoon! a few of them were oso busy playing among the few mattresses in the class. dunno wad they were doing but in the end i had to bring the mattresses out too. drained me out so much, i was glad when i took them out to the playground finally.

anw. pls help spread to classmates and fellow NJcians. Mrs Che is having leukemia and needs B+ blood. anyone who can donate pls contact Mr Davidson at 97659578.

jw-! thanks deaR! i miss u too!!

shuhui*, yen, tear! thanks dears! love u all too!! =)

ahlam! hahaha thanks! where have u been man?!??! anw take care too ya! keep in touch! =)

brentZ! hahhas thanks! happy cny to u too! it'll be ur turn soon right! hehe anw take care! =)

posted by linez @ 10:44 PM